Finally, test day comes. To take a test, I prepared many things. Test consists of three part that is presentation, grammar and learning in man to man. The most difficult thing was presentation. Because I have to prepare six topic and beside I should memorize it in order to present fluently. If I stop presentation a little, I got minus point. So every day I practice presentation. Teacher says “Don’t memorize” but without memorizing, I couldn’t say one word. Yesterday I practiced very much until Am 2:00. And I didn’t mistake at all. But I didn’t get perfect good score.. I have to have upper 80 score in order to upgrade my level. Result is pass but I’m not satisfied with that score. Because of low score, I was depressed. So, I had a cold. Maybe I was very nervous. For three days. I lied every weekend. I stayed in my dorm. Owing to finishing the test, many friends went out but I couldn’t. While lying, I thought many things that was related to my future. I really expected many things. As long as I arrive Philippine, I think I would be perfect for English. I think everything would be solved automatically.  But my expectation was wrong. I totally misunderstood. That fact made me very hard. I must listen to music to relieve my mind and stress. This month is very difficult to endure. But I have to overcome it. Because I have 2 month left.